Home in Jamaica

refugees-pic-editedMy blog tends to get followed by those interested in travel, or lumped together with travel writers, but what I think differentiates it from traveler blogs it is that its about living in and discovering new places and making them home, which is a lot different that being a tourist or a traveler.  We have lived in so many places over the years, and been through the transit of settling.  Its tiring in the best of times, which this hasn’t been, and this time around I’m just exhausted by it all.   We’re lived out of suitcases for months, been through the process of unpacking and finding homes for the contents of 176 boxes, hung the art on the walls, and tried to fix the terrible lighting in this house in the name of making life feel our kind of normal. I know the process, the pitfalls and what helps make us slowly fit in and really call somewhere home.  For any number of reasons, 2.5 months into our “Jamaican homewarming”  I am still struggling to feel the spark.  This is mostly not the fault of Jamaica (or Jamaicans) but a cocktail of difficulties that has made our time here to date less than ideal.  I’ve struggled to do things like maintain this blog, or spend time doing things I used to enjoy, and I am in a funk.  Friends and family have asked me if everything is alright and encouragingly ask me about life here, but my blog approaches its third month of silence, its time to make a decision on the way forward.  There are interesting things and stories here, and there is so much that is better.  We have clean air, views of the mountains and somewhere to go walking after work.  The streets have traffic, but not the lunacy and filth of Kathmandu streets.  Our area of Kingston is so much more attractive than our earlier homes, but I miss the enthusiasm I had for discovering Manila and Kathmandu.  Perhaps it is time to see if the passion can rise from the storytelling process and not just the other way around?  Will the discipline of writing again help ignite some kind of spark for life in this country?  I’ll give it a try.  Words of encouragement are very welcome.